Solitude:

Oblivious.

Sleep deprivation sucks. 

Ouch, it really does.

Good thing old people are allowed to take naps.

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HiP QWNS


The north star always guides me
When winter skies are gray
And I wait for sun when all are one
I shall not betray

I'm living the American dream, but don't really feel alive at all.  You know what I mean?  I keep telling myself that things will change when life settles down.  I'm almost afraid one day it will.  It's like driving around looking out the windows with no idea where I'm going.  However, I remain optimistic and accept responsibility for the change I seek.  I'm here because I love AIC music and you guys make me feel less invisible.  Thank you. 

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Are you like me, confused

SFA!

I am so scared about the economy and my job security.  I can't even think about saving for my kid's college funds.  This place is a good escape sometimes.

Creep, you don't need to nap when you retire at 9:00.  In fact, I will probably miss the online board party Sat. night. . . .

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"For every star is formed in fire, and so it goes for you. And every face along your path, sees your heart is true." DuVall/Constantine

life is tough, but as each year passes i find i am appreciating the simple things, like the smell of freshly cut grass on a warm summers afternoon (which is rare, since we don't get much sun in Ireland) or early mornings when the house is quiet and i sit and think while having a nice cup of coffee and a ***. life's ok at the moment.

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I'm not in the mood to pack everything up, get my assignment finished, say goodbye to all my friends and move to the other side of the country :(

9? I considered starting to sleep earlier, I'm beat from the minute I wake up, Diet Dr Pepper and it's caffeine is on the priority list next to air. Especially on these hellish Wednesdays. But I just can't not get online haha you guys are killing me slowly

I'm kind of mad at myself right now. I just... I can't appreciate anything I do. It annoys the hell out of me. I did something today, I found out, that I'm probably the only person who could ever brag about this thing, and I didn't feel anything. And it's like, I keep getting complimented, and I just feel so uncomfortable when people do because I don't feel anything... I'd rather get told that I have a very low to mid novice level of bass playing than hear someone compliment me for being smart, because I don't give a shit about that, I don't try, it just is, I don't know why... I don't have to work at it, and it's like, I appreciate the fact, but at the same time, I'd give it all to someone who actually tries at any time, "hey, you want to be smart, here you go." I just... Sorry for bitching, but this is my life right now. I screwed up and managed to get in a half hour+ long conversation with someone I look up to who just pretty much told me how great I was and how much better than him the whole time while I waited for my one friend to come over and rescue me. This isn't even something I should have to complain about, you know? I'm really sorry... I know, I should appreciate it, I should be happy, I'm lucky, I'm just such a great fucking person, but that's not how I feel...

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HiP QWNS


The north star always guides me
When winter skies are gray
And I wait for sun when all are one
I shall not betray

 
"I wish my name was Brian because maybe sometimes people would misspell my name and call me Brain. That's like a free compliment and you don't even gotta be smart to notice it." - Mitch Hedberg
 

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^ qwning sig by creep!

Life.
My life is full of confusion. Sometimes life is good, and then there are those times when it's not, but all of us go through that.
I recently broke up with my bf of 8 months. Happy to say that I'm glad it's over. I couldn't handle that anymore, it was long distance, he was 18 and about to graduate and start his life, but worst of all, HE WASN'T AN alice FAN! haha. But anywho...lately my friends have been trying to convert me into their religions since they know I'm confused about what I believe. That's one of the main things bothering me, my family are strict Catholics, and well I'm the black sheep...no one knows that I don't believe, and I'm sure my parents would be pretty outraged if they found out, and automatically blame it on the music I listen to. (#1 thing parents tend to blame when something goes wrong with their kids) I want to believe in something, but for me there's not enough proof. Seems like most things in this world are lies. You can't even believe what you see anymore...I question a lot of things, and religion is one of them. I'm at that peek age, I'm 16, and I know most teens begin to question the world around them. But I find it hard to believe that the earth was created in 7 days by a man that no one has ever seen, that and many other things. I take Conformation classes, which is a bad idea, since I'm conforming myself to be a Catholic for the rest of my life, I really want to tell my parents that I want to stop going, but I don't want to dissapoint them anymore...like I said, I'm the black sheep out of the 4 kids that my mother gave birth to. I feel like I've dissapointed them too much in the 16 years I've been living. They expect me to be the perfect daughter, who cleans, cooks, gets straight A's, and loves the color pink. I'm not like that, I'm completely the oppisite, and I can see they don't like that, and religion would only be adding to the problem.
I don't know what to do...
I guess the best song to describe my life at the moment would be "God Am"
It suits me perfectly.

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credit to HiP

You just be who you are Gema. You don't need to stress out right now about what you believe. Its perfectly fine to be unaware..I think deep inside everyone is a little unsure. I was brought up Catholic for awhile too. I even went to Catholic school and went through a lot of the ceremonies. But in private my mother was teaching me paganism. Ultimately, I adopted the pagan beliefs. But it took some time before I even fully discovered what I believed..now I know.

Also, don't be afraid to establish YOUR OWN sense of spirituality. You don't always have to fit a religious mold. You may end up finding out you believe a little of everything. Try not to feel guilty or shame about it.

A good person is a good person, despite their religious/spiritual beliefs.

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“Life, death, sex; what else is there? A beer maybe."

Very insightful, Sarie.

Great post and great advice.

 

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"We play so fine, don't you agree?" ~ Layne Staley

"We want to celebrate what we did and the memory of our friend." ~ Jerry Cantrell

SoFarAway:

I'm living the American dream, but don't really feel alive at all.  You know what I mean?  I keep telling myself that things will change when life settles down.  I'm almost afraid one day it will.  It's like driving around looking out the windows with no idea where I'm going.  However, I remain optimistic and accept responsibility for the change I seek.  I'm here because I love AIC music and you guys make me feel less invisible.  Thank you. 

  

I can relate to your not feeling alive. Sometimes I feel like I'm asleep, waiting to wake up. It comes and goes. We have 7 acres in the mountains and when I'm outside, alone, is when I feel connected. I don't get enough of that time.

We do so much running around in our daily lives, wasting time and energy. When I can forget about the daily bullshit and really focus on something, I'm happiest.

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Go RAIDERS!!!

We're all just insignificant ants. It is sad.

SarieInChains:

You just be who you are Gema. You don't need to stress out right now about what you believe. Its perfectly fine to be unaware..I think deep inside everyone is a little unsure. I was brought up Catholic for awhile too. I even went to Catholic school and went through a lot of the ceremonies. But in private my mother was teaching me paganism. Ultimately, I adopted the pagan beliefs. But it took some time before I even fully discovered what I believed..now I know.

Also, don't be afraid to establish YOUR OWN sense of spirituality. You don't always have to fit a religious mold. You may end up finding out you believe a little of everything. Try not to feel guilty or shame about it.

A good person is a good person, despite their religious/spiritual beliefs.

thnxs Sarie
thoughts in my head, and well that's good advice...I need a really long walk somewhere peaceful.

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credit to HiP

Your welcome darling.

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“Life, death, sex; what else is there? A beer maybe."

TheREALkiller206:

Our lives (Lindsey and I) are mixed.

On a personally level our lives are amazing. I love Lindsey to death, she is my best fiend on the planet, I get to ride my bike to work each day, we have our health, I love my job, the weather here rules, we live in a fabulous place with parks everywhere. We can get our groceries, Jamba juice, haircut, breakfast, coffee all within the same shopping center 2 minutes from where we live. Our Sharks are in the playoffs, Obama is in the lead, etc...

But.....

From living in DC for so long (before moving to Cali) I've gotten to know way way too much info on the state of the nation and because Lindsey and I have been together for 3 plus years now she knows the deal and sometimes we feel very nervous and anxious about short term and long term life in America.

 Sooooooo many Americans lives are about to be negatively impacted and even worse, the fact that they don't even know it's coming makes it worse and sometimes I wish I had a huge megaphone to warn everyone of what's coming around the corner.

I wonder if it's better to know what's going to happen or to be oblivious like most.

 

 

 

 

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